I wanted to make my gratitude list but I don’t think I can. Not Today.
Let me get a little emotional just to unload a few things from my chest.
I’m starting to get sad this week. Last year, peanutbutter♥ told me that it’s just natural that I get sad during this season because it’s the holidays and it’s all about family. And our family isn’t complete during Christmas every year.
Yes, it is one of the reasons that I’m sad. I feel like even though peanutbutter♥ and I talk a lot on video call everyday, I’m getting to know him less and less as time goes by. I also fear that he’s missing Ykaie much more than he can handle.
Another reason that I’m sad is because I’m afraid I will have to close the shop soon. I’ve grown to love this business but it’s not doing good anymore. I have to think of other options to work at home so that I could take care of Ykaie at the same time.
This is not letting me get enough sleep…
It’s also robbing me of the inspiration for my food posts as most of it is a product of giddyness, happy thoughts and emotions.